Year's End
Monday, Dec. 20, 2004 at 10:30 am
Okay guys. This is going to be my last entry for a while. There's so much to say, it's hard to know where to begin.
Well we're moving. And we're moving into my mothers "boyfriend"s house. This man is an Nam vet who has a house full of weapons, oh and hates me and wants me to die. Yeah. I'm extra excited about it.
So I'm planning on getting an apartment with O, and maybe some other girl, as soon as possible. But it may take as long as February because I have to wait for my refund check from school. And we have to wait for O to get a job. She almost had one. From the time she picked up her application to when she turned in her test, the manager guaranteed her the job. But she didn't get it because she failed the test by one point. ONE POINT! That is such bullshit. The manager said she could just write a letter and have it overwritten, but that was too much for her to do. AGHH!
I am so stressed. I just want to live life and not have to worry abot being offed in my sleep you know.
Well, I'm taking the cable modem back today and I felt I needed to explain why I won't be around for a while.
Since this is the last entry of the year, I decided to steal the following from karmicenigma.
1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
The only real new experience for me was xanax. I suppose that's a testament to how stressed I've been.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I did lose weight and I came out of my shell I was hiding in since my leg broke.
Next year I want to reach my goal weight and stay in school. Above all I jst need to stay in school. And live a little bit.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
No.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
No.
5. What countries did you visit?
None. :(
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
Peace of mind. I just want to live one day not worrying about the next.
7. What dates from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
February 15 - I turned 21.
July 4 - the day I decided I wouldn't lay aronud and continue to be miserable. I got up and started doing something about it.
December 28 - the day our lease is up.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Forcing myself to get up and change my life.
9. What was your biggest failure?
I haven't quit smoking. I would and then I'd start back. Giving in to fear and worry.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Not really. I've had a fairly healthy year.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
My cd burner. And my dvd player.
12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
O. She stuck with me at my worst and wasn't afraid to tell me all my mistakes.
13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
My mother. She has reached all new highs in evilness. She has lost it and no longer cares abot her children or herself. God please forgive and help my mother.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Drugs, booze, and ciggs. No really. If I had saved any of the countless dollars I spent on these things I would be able to move out on my own now.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
My job at Barnes & Noble Cafe. I LOVE coffee.
16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
There are so many. Anything Switchfoot put out. But I'll probably say "Cry freedom". I win!
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? happier.
b) thinner or fatter? thinner, thank God.
c) richer or poorer? richer. I had jobs this year.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Pray. Gone out more. Spoke up more.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Worry. Letting things go when I should have stood up.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Moving.
21. How will you be spending New Years?
Anywhere but at home.
22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
I learned to love myself a little more.
23. How many one-night stands?
None.
24. What was your favorite TV program?
Alias and Desprate housewives. And I disover Nip/Tuck.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I have hated this year but I'm over it.
26. What was the best book you read?
Five people you meet in heaven.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Jason Mraz.
28. What did you want and get?
My weight loss, I got back in school, and my current job. And my dad being approved for his disability.
29. What did you want and not get?
A happy ending to 2004. But hey the year's not over yet.
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Secretary and Amelie. I know they didn't come out this year but I discovered them this year.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
21- bought Boone's Farm
32.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
My dad getting his money and moving away from my mom.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
Old clothes. I didn't buy many new ones.
34. What kept you sane?
O. She was my outlet.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Jake Gyllenhaal. One sexy, sexy man.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Voting for the issues instead of fear.
37. Who did you miss?
Amy. Florida. My old self.
38. Who was the best new person you met?
I'd have to say the people I work with now. Everyone else I met turned out to be shit.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
Go for what you want. No one else is going to give it to you.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"Even If things end up a bit to heavy, we'll all float on."
-Modest Mouse
It's about that time - Wednesday, Dec. 07, 2005
Why hello there - Friday, Sept. 09, 2005
Year's End - Monday, Dec. 20, 2004
Mood Ring - Friday, Dec. 17, 2004
That may be all I need - Monday, Dec. 06, 2004
